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Tonight I watched this new clip by the Church of the Savior and wept. I've been going through some tough things this week and found myself pretty deep in despair. The Savior states that His soul was exceedingly sorrowful - even unto death... His friend betrayed Him and he never complained, not once. I believe that the power to overcome disappointments and difficulties comes from avoiding the 'I don't deserve this' attitude, when you do that it is like avoiding reality- what truly is and fighting a fruitless fight.
Life is so very hard and painful but it is what it is. The Savior felt what I felt this week and I don't think I've ever felt quite as close to what he may have in Gethsemane so far in my life... I've had a couple of sleepless nights and could hardly eat today, only eating a tiny scoop of peanut butter for dinner. The Savior feeling sadness that His friends could not wait an hour for him as he suffered in Gethsemane, bleeding from every pore, how can I feel so entitled to never feel alone and scared of being alone. After taking upon Him ALL our sins He was taken by a mob of angry men and even healed a man who Peter tried to dismember; who am I want to hurt people who hurt me? I really see the reality of turning the other cheek. Though Satan really has been beating me up with a steel bat this week I know I'm not even 1/10 of the way in understanding what my Savior did for me that when I asked for him to cast Satan out so late at night- He did and I was okay, I can turn on church music and feel some peace- but he was left alone, on the cross even he was left alone for a time, he had to know what it is was like.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Things that make you go- Hmmmmm.....
I am quite sure that in order to remove some bacteria, pesticides and types of even hepatitis- water is quite sufficient if ran over the product that is not very porous- otherwise the FDA or whoever would likely not be selling it in a non-washed condition like apples... I doubt something like cavacide, (I jest), would be needed as a scientist implied recently to knock germa-phobics in general- that eating raw unwashed fruit was no different then eat washed.... fruit. Finished a final- let's see what I found! ;)
"Commercial sprays and washes sold for cleaning vegetables really aren't any better than cleaning thoroughly with plain water, so don't waste your money on them." http://nutrition.about.com/od/ahealthykitchen/a/washveggies.htm
Don't use soap or anything but water- now let's go to a credible source:
"Before eating or preparing fresh fruits and vegetables, wash the produce under cold running tap water to remove any lingering dirt. This reduces bacteria that may be present. If there is a firm surface, such as on apples or potatoes, the surface can be scrubbed with a brush. Consumers should not wash fruits and vegetables with detergent or soap. These products are not approved or labeled by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) for use on foods. You could ingest residues from soap or detergent absorbed on the produce.
When preparing fruits and vegetables, cut away any damaged or bruised areas because bacteria that cause illness can thrive in those places. Immediately refrigerate any fresh-cut items such as salad or fruit for best quality and food safety. "
http://www.fsis.usda.gov/Factsheets/Does_Washing_Food_Promote_Food_Safety/index.asp
.GOV baby... I say with deep, sincere humility. But what about hepatitis?.... hmmm someone should start responding to my blogs soon, I think I'll stop hiding them.
"Commercial sprays and washes sold for cleaning vegetables really aren't any better than cleaning thoroughly with plain water, so don't waste your money on them." http://nutrition.about.com/od/ahealthykitchen/a/washveggies.htm
Don't use soap or anything but water- now let's go to a credible source:
"Before eating or preparing fresh fruits and vegetables, wash the produce under cold running tap water to remove any lingering dirt. This reduces bacteria that may be present. If there is a firm surface, such as on apples or potatoes, the surface can be scrubbed with a brush. Consumers should not wash fruits and vegetables with detergent or soap. These products are not approved or labeled by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) for use on foods. You could ingest residues from soap or detergent absorbed on the produce.
When preparing fruits and vegetables, cut away any damaged or bruised areas because bacteria that cause illness can thrive in those places. Immediately refrigerate any fresh-cut items such as salad or fruit for best quality and food safety. "
http://www.fsis.usda.gov/Factsheets/Does_Washing_Food_Promote_Food_Safety/index.asp
.GOV baby... I say with deep, sincere humility. But what about hepatitis?.... hmmm someone should start responding to my blogs soon, I think I'll stop hiding them.
Back to Basics?
I am in a funny mood and want to explain some issues that many people have, one of them being social anxiety. I certainly believe that science and research are often inspired by God, and sometimes they truly aren't. I believe that many in the pharmaceutical world are money hungry and not as concerned with creating a drug to help people as much as coming up with a new money maker ;) Anyway, I am not dumb as I sound, I just like to pause and get social phobic, lose my train of thought in Sunday school and start rambling- but hey- it's probably more coherent then I was a couple of years ago, and well in my younger days I'd nearly choke to say yes or no at Church... so don't put me down. :)
So, in Sunday school I raised my hand about 'going beyond the mark' in reference to the Israelites and compared them to us, how we seek to be happy in our society have so much more possessions then any generation and endless arrays of 'happy' pills and yet we are so unhappy. My point I made was that people in third world countries are happier then most Americans these days and they have nothing!... I watched a Documentary about the Lost Boys in Africa, it was called "God Grew Tired of Us" and it was amazing to watch and made me feel stupid for complaining about my horribly dipped chocolate cone from McDonalds that day.
I remember being in Elementary school and seeing pictures of children in Africa dying from starvation and how unreal it felt, and to see a documentary of these boys who survived starvation and though not as malnourished as they were as children grew up to be so incredibly happy and grateful for what they had despite still going without food some days...
I truly believe that happiness is most dependent on simple basic things such as gratitude and a choosing a good attitude. Your soul SIMPLY has to account for more then half (of factors influencing 'happiness'), followed by what you put into your body and then of course your chemicals and hormones... how else would we experience joy and pain without them- if you're depressed- it is undeniably chemical and drugs from a physician can help, I would never assume otherwise, they just can't help that much! lol... oh snap.
I actually strongly believe many additives and high salt intake contribute greatly to our rises in depression. I have blogged about soy, but seriously- it mimics estrogen, I HATE estrogen most days and I am positive that soy makes me hysterical along with a hundred products on the shelf that mess up your hormones, I would more then be willing to be in a study and drink soy for a week, then canned foods the next and see my hormone levels change... I feel it! I felt it this week, partly natural, but I was sick and had to have some soup and thought being at Trader Joes I'd find something without the BPA, nope.
..." Bisphenol A (BPA), a chemical which functions like a synthetic estrogen..." (http://www.environmentalhealth.ca/summer07plasticchemical.html) Someone looks at me wrong and I go home and cry... I hate this hormone, WHY do we put it in everything, SOY is in everything... it mimics estrogen!!!
Salt.
I have low blood pressure and ever since childhood I knew that I felt normal after eating a lot of it, it wasn't enough unless it looked like I'd crystallized my dinner (it naturally balances my blood pressure, and it's a natural anti depressant- eek)... However... if I don't drink enough water, I feel my heart rate rise and I'm anxious... I don't feel so great at that point, and I simply might be even more emotional too, unless I balance with enough water- I'm then less emotionally imbalanced. Well, emotional in the anxious sense, which if I do something anxiously driven, I could then feel depressed... despite the momentary depression relief from salt. I used to call salt my crack ahaha...yeah- no.
Since I've avoided nearly everything boxed and canned I've felt much happier and healthier, minus the times I had a cold and decided to just this one time grab that can of old fashioned chicken noodle, nearly every time I give in and eat something canned I start out crabby, but if I'm even nearly PMSing- you don't want to tick me off and well, I've had some things happen around a time when I've already been prone to natural higher level of estrogen, then having a cold- eating something canned, then I find myself very much out of whack- so to speak and very emotional...
Meds and other therapies, yes please, technology is great, just don't knock the basic simply things that have a greater influence on our emotional well being. Unless they mimic illicit drugs and give you or your child zombie like symptoms. I speak about social anxiety and the thing that really annoys me is the theory that depression causes anxiety- so anti-depressants will cure anxiety issues. Anxiety to be is undeniably biological and I strongly believe anxiety issues are genetic and more then depression need pharmaceutical helps- but there is not much out there to help with purely anxiety, at least not the last time I checked with a professional. Suicide results from anxiety, often the main symptom of depression- avoiding normal daily activities and interests are more from anxiety then actual depression. Social anxiety on the one hand is very depressing and can be similar to depression in the neural pathways being nearly cemented in a negative wave of thinking, but they will NEVER find a drug that will force you to change your neural pathways and habitual way of thinking... EVER. I do, however have found my life change tremendously since finding a drug for anxiety, I am more social, less shy (went through and still going through a little growing pain with that one- outspokeness...yep) and less depressed... why? Because 9 times out the 10 when I was depressed- it was directly linked to a social situation that upset me that day... Yeah.
A lot of anti depressants like Prozac have gained a bad rep for causing anger issues. I don't know all the facts but I do know if you're trying to be anything but sad and you're not dealing with your thoughts well or your psychologist is telling you you're thoughts are your chemicals speaking- you are: one- sending that person the next intense emotion- anger- and two taking away their power (satan loves that one, you're not responsible for your actions- you suffer from depression and your thoughts are driven by something you can't control... how 'bout I step in- I can hear him laughing). After debating about the use of anti-depressants with a counselor- they told me that it doesn't do that much, but for sure those with major depression MUST have it- or those who are suicidal- I disagreed- and LITERALLY that week- HUGE news- anti-depressants linked to suicides and now being less handed out to those with major depression or those who are teens... can I get an- oh- snap! Why is this so? You took away the last thing they felt control of- their thoughts.
No matter how depressed I am if I can stop thinking about how awful this or that situation was because 'I deserved better' (selfishness), then just snap of the fingers (long prayer full of validation from God and being told that I need to see those who have it worse then me and shut up) I'm fine, or listening to Church Music, it is incredible how my serotonin reuptake is working pretty dang well. Does that mean that others could still have difficulty being 'happy'- yes and yes they could benefit from medicinal help. I simply get concerned when people are taking huge cocktails of mood stabilizers... and I am truly thinking that a nice combo of preventative measures and reasearch and near old pharmaceuticals could actual gain on this battle with depression.
So, in Sunday school I raised my hand about 'going beyond the mark' in reference to the Israelites and compared them to us, how we seek to be happy in our society have so much more possessions then any generation and endless arrays of 'happy' pills and yet we are so unhappy. My point I made was that people in third world countries are happier then most Americans these days and they have nothing!... I watched a Documentary about the Lost Boys in Africa, it was called "God Grew Tired of Us" and it was amazing to watch and made me feel stupid for complaining about my horribly dipped chocolate cone from McDonalds that day.
I remember being in Elementary school and seeing pictures of children in Africa dying from starvation and how unreal it felt, and to see a documentary of these boys who survived starvation and though not as malnourished as they were as children grew up to be so incredibly happy and grateful for what they had despite still going without food some days...
I truly believe that happiness is most dependent on simple basic things such as gratitude and a choosing a good attitude. Your soul SIMPLY has to account for more then half (of factors influencing 'happiness'), followed by what you put into your body and then of course your chemicals and hormones... how else would we experience joy and pain without them- if you're depressed- it is undeniably chemical and drugs from a physician can help, I would never assume otherwise, they just can't help that much! lol... oh snap.
I actually strongly believe many additives and high salt intake contribute greatly to our rises in depression. I have blogged about soy, but seriously- it mimics estrogen, I HATE estrogen most days and I am positive that soy makes me hysterical along with a hundred products on the shelf that mess up your hormones, I would more then be willing to be in a study and drink soy for a week, then canned foods the next and see my hormone levels change... I feel it! I felt it this week, partly natural, but I was sick and had to have some soup and thought being at Trader Joes I'd find something without the BPA, nope.
..." Bisphenol A (BPA), a chemical which functions like a synthetic estrogen..." (http://www.environmentalhealth.ca/summer07plasticchemical.html) Someone looks at me wrong and I go home and cry... I hate this hormone, WHY do we put it in everything, SOY is in everything... it mimics estrogen!!!
Salt.
I have low blood pressure and ever since childhood I knew that I felt normal after eating a lot of it, it wasn't enough unless it looked like I'd crystallized my dinner (it naturally balances my blood pressure, and it's a natural anti depressant- eek)... However... if I don't drink enough water, I feel my heart rate rise and I'm anxious... I don't feel so great at that point, and I simply might be even more emotional too, unless I balance with enough water- I'm then less emotionally imbalanced. Well, emotional in the anxious sense, which if I do something anxiously driven, I could then feel depressed... despite the momentary depression relief from salt. I used to call salt my crack ahaha...yeah- no.
Since I've avoided nearly everything boxed and canned I've felt much happier and healthier, minus the times I had a cold and decided to just this one time grab that can of old fashioned chicken noodle, nearly every time I give in and eat something canned I start out crabby, but if I'm even nearly PMSing- you don't want to tick me off and well, I've had some things happen around a time when I've already been prone to natural higher level of estrogen, then having a cold- eating something canned, then I find myself very much out of whack- so to speak and very emotional...
Meds and other therapies, yes please, technology is great, just don't knock the basic simply things that have a greater influence on our emotional well being. Unless they mimic illicit drugs and give you or your child zombie like symptoms. I speak about social anxiety and the thing that really annoys me is the theory that depression causes anxiety- so anti-depressants will cure anxiety issues. Anxiety to be is undeniably biological and I strongly believe anxiety issues are genetic and more then depression need pharmaceutical helps- but there is not much out there to help with purely anxiety, at least not the last time I checked with a professional. Suicide results from anxiety, often the main symptom of depression- avoiding normal daily activities and interests are more from anxiety then actual depression. Social anxiety on the one hand is very depressing and can be similar to depression in the neural pathways being nearly cemented in a negative wave of thinking, but they will NEVER find a drug that will force you to change your neural pathways and habitual way of thinking... EVER. I do, however have found my life change tremendously since finding a drug for anxiety, I am more social, less shy (went through and still going through a little growing pain with that one- outspokeness...yep) and less depressed... why? Because 9 times out the 10 when I was depressed- it was directly linked to a social situation that upset me that day... Yeah.
A lot of anti depressants like Prozac have gained a bad rep for causing anger issues. I don't know all the facts but I do know if you're trying to be anything but sad and you're not dealing with your thoughts well or your psychologist is telling you you're thoughts are your chemicals speaking- you are: one- sending that person the next intense emotion- anger- and two taking away their power (satan loves that one, you're not responsible for your actions- you suffer from depression and your thoughts are driven by something you can't control... how 'bout I step in- I can hear him laughing). After debating about the use of anti-depressants with a counselor- they told me that it doesn't do that much, but for sure those with major depression MUST have it- or those who are suicidal- I disagreed- and LITERALLY that week- HUGE news- anti-depressants linked to suicides and now being less handed out to those with major depression or those who are teens... can I get an- oh- snap! Why is this so? You took away the last thing they felt control of- their thoughts.
No matter how depressed I am if I can stop thinking about how awful this or that situation was because 'I deserved better' (selfishness), then just snap of the fingers (long prayer full of validation from God and being told that I need to see those who have it worse then me and shut up) I'm fine, or listening to Church Music, it is incredible how my serotonin reuptake is working pretty dang well. Does that mean that others could still have difficulty being 'happy'- yes and yes they could benefit from medicinal help. I simply get concerned when people are taking huge cocktails of mood stabilizers... and I am truly thinking that a nice combo of preventative measures and reasearch and near old pharmaceuticals could actual gain on this battle with depression.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Attraction...
I have been thinking a lot about what I find attractive in men. I think that a sense of humor is huge, but then again it is with anyone you're even friends with, anyone that you spend a decent amount of time with would really suck if you were always super duper serious, and everyone has a different take on what is funny- so that's hard... For me- he has to be taller... I need to feel protected. He has to have as much education or at least years of education since high school (I've had 7), I have a Bachelor of Science from BYUI and graduated from Dallas Roberts Academy with a Masters in Aesthetics. Now I am pursuing another certification in Medical Assisting and I'm really wanting to know what I'm doing, so even though I have my prerequisites for the program- I might just jump into the second half of my education in A and P as I already have the higher level book from a time I thought I could skip a bunch of classes and talked my way into the second level A and P... haha.
I myself tend to put a lot of stress on myself when it comes to dating and tend to think that I still need to be 'perfect' to date, boys seem to be the same- it's kindof weird we're like that... We have to think positive and know that whomever the Lord prepared for us will forgive our weaknesses if we are honest and work on them (it's the last days- people have issues haha). Personally- the guy would HAVE to be someone that is acclimated to a girl who says exactly what she thinks and doesn't hold much back, cause I think that biologically it's near impossible for me in this life to be the typical "you should know what I'm thinking by looking at me..."- deceptive female... and if you know me and ask how I'm doing and what's going on- I actually... tell you and I do my best to choose my battles, I generally keep a lot to myself if it's not necessary...
Physical attraction; women tend to connect this with emotions, but I dare to say the fascinating non-verbals/facial expressions for us consist of a large percentage of a physical attraction. I think that to me 'looks' say more then actions sometimes, and sometimes you can't explain why you are so attracted to someone. Some people might remind us of people that we were once close to and feel a familiarity. Overall I think that we can control our attraction if we make effort with someone new, at least with women that is what we do to get over someone, men on the other hand seem to be wired to do the opposite- the more women they seek interest in doesn't decrease attraction to the last 'love' so to speak- as much, the more the merrier! (we- women- don't always get that... men liking many girls at the same level... we think we should always be the only interest).
I think girls expect men to know if they like a girl or have an interest in a girl immediately; truth is- hey he could still think you're hot (whatever it's worth), but no effort- we all know... 'he's just not that into you' haha. I know that men are not mindless drones driven by their need to find an overly attractive mate, they are just wired differently... but they are well driven by competition, which is why the 'easier' girls seem to get the most attention... now that's an interesting topic...
When it come so the Spirit leading us to someone of interest it isn't complicated at all. The Spirit told me in the past that a guy was going to hurt me (that I had totally cut ties with many many moons (years) ago- and no interest in reconnecting with)- oddly I ignored a minor inspiration to walk away from someone who was connected to him and through a series of events he was back in my mind and heart and played his manipulative games, which became worse then ever and I haven't dated anyone seriously since... He wasn't honest, he always had a huge Utah smile on his face and incapable of saying what he was feeling or thinking. I later found he was doing to same to others and obsessing over partying and having tons of friends to an unhealthy level, he was seeking self-esteem through what other people thought of him and I realized how empty his self-worth was to have the nerve to say and do what he did to me and other women. I felt somewhat validated with conference last year, he was a successful man- even in his words- who had no interest in dating anyone seriously and he was in his mid thirties! He was the least dependable man I've met in my entire life! Talk about feeling unstable- we want stability...honesty...
Men who are secure don't feel the need to make empty promises or false expectations are deserving much respect even if it hurts a girl or two whom he has no interest. Leading to the truth that you have to like yourself to date and of course if you like yourself to a point that you are still kind and selfless- others are greatly attracted to you and dating will make more sense. May sound like I'm contradicting myself, but men are attracted to confidence and women also. If you don't feel that you should be dating right now, which I have at times- knowing I wasn't in the right mind frame or expecting the right things, that IS personal; but there is nothing worse then a person who is a serial dater for lack of self-worth.
I knew a girl recently who played her A game in effort to just get asked out- got a lot of attention and a lot of interest from men... She had dated a boy who she kissed, liked a lot and told me how much he hurt her by saying he was only 'friends with her' and soon was kissing boys she herself she wasn't interested in and played with several boys hearts- boys made shallow efforts too though and I doubt she reaped much more then flattery and often complained how she wasn't asked out much, though my keen ability to read people I KNEW about a hundred of them would be more then happy to ask her out and she was blatant in some non-verbals that she wanted them to! Boys seem to want us to be more and more overt to get asked out- it's not right.
I can be kinda lacking in compassion towards issues I don't get with men. I know issues and I know my own issues and I know Satan tries to lie us into solitude which we convince ourselves is healing- and it just might not be, but of course empty relationships aren't either. Boys want to jump physical steps and there are girls more then willing, but that in my opinion leads to much confusion in a relationship no matter how careful you are to keep some boundaries... :/
I myself tend to put a lot of stress on myself when it comes to dating and tend to think that I still need to be 'perfect' to date, boys seem to be the same- it's kindof weird we're like that... We have to think positive and know that whomever the Lord prepared for us will forgive our weaknesses if we are honest and work on them (it's the last days- people have issues haha). Personally- the guy would HAVE to be someone that is acclimated to a girl who says exactly what she thinks and doesn't hold much back, cause I think that biologically it's near impossible for me in this life to be the typical "you should know what I'm thinking by looking at me..."- deceptive female... and if you know me and ask how I'm doing and what's going on- I actually... tell you and I do my best to choose my battles, I generally keep a lot to myself if it's not necessary...
Physical attraction; women tend to connect this with emotions, but I dare to say the fascinating non-verbals/facial expressions for us consist of a large percentage of a physical attraction. I think that to me 'looks' say more then actions sometimes, and sometimes you can't explain why you are so attracted to someone. Some people might remind us of people that we were once close to and feel a familiarity. Overall I think that we can control our attraction if we make effort with someone new, at least with women that is what we do to get over someone, men on the other hand seem to be wired to do the opposite- the more women they seek interest in doesn't decrease attraction to the last 'love' so to speak- as much, the more the merrier! (we- women- don't always get that... men liking many girls at the same level... we think we should always be the only interest).
I think girls expect men to know if they like a girl or have an interest in a girl immediately; truth is- hey he could still think you're hot (whatever it's worth), but no effort- we all know... 'he's just not that into you' haha. I know that men are not mindless drones driven by their need to find an overly attractive mate, they are just wired differently... but they are well driven by competition, which is why the 'easier' girls seem to get the most attention... now that's an interesting topic...
When it come so the Spirit leading us to someone of interest it isn't complicated at all. The Spirit told me in the past that a guy was going to hurt me (that I had totally cut ties with many many moons (years) ago- and no interest in reconnecting with)- oddly I ignored a minor inspiration to walk away from someone who was connected to him and through a series of events he was back in my mind and heart and played his manipulative games, which became worse then ever and I haven't dated anyone seriously since... He wasn't honest, he always had a huge Utah smile on his face and incapable of saying what he was feeling or thinking. I later found he was doing to same to others and obsessing over partying and having tons of friends to an unhealthy level, he was seeking self-esteem through what other people thought of him and I realized how empty his self-worth was to have the nerve to say and do what he did to me and other women. I felt somewhat validated with conference last year, he was a successful man- even in his words- who had no interest in dating anyone seriously and he was in his mid thirties! He was the least dependable man I've met in my entire life! Talk about feeling unstable- we want stability...honesty...
Men who are secure don't feel the need to make empty promises or false expectations are deserving much respect even if it hurts a girl or two whom he has no interest. Leading to the truth that you have to like yourself to date and of course if you like yourself to a point that you are still kind and selfless- others are greatly attracted to you and dating will make more sense. May sound like I'm contradicting myself, but men are attracted to confidence and women also. If you don't feel that you should be dating right now, which I have at times- knowing I wasn't in the right mind frame or expecting the right things, that IS personal; but there is nothing worse then a person who is a serial dater for lack of self-worth.
I knew a girl recently who played her A game in effort to just get asked out- got a lot of attention and a lot of interest from men... She had dated a boy who she kissed, liked a lot and told me how much he hurt her by saying he was only 'friends with her' and soon was kissing boys she herself she wasn't interested in and played with several boys hearts- boys made shallow efforts too though and I doubt she reaped much more then flattery and often complained how she wasn't asked out much, though my keen ability to read people I KNEW about a hundred of them would be more then happy to ask her out and she was blatant in some non-verbals that she wanted them to! Boys seem to want us to be more and more overt to get asked out- it's not right.
I can be kinda lacking in compassion towards issues I don't get with men. I know issues and I know my own issues and I know Satan tries to lie us into solitude which we convince ourselves is healing- and it just might not be, but of course empty relationships aren't either. Boys want to jump physical steps and there are girls more then willing, but that in my opinion leads to much confusion in a relationship no matter how careful you are to keep some boundaries... :/
Pride Cycle
"...O how foolish, and how vain, and how evil, and devilish, and how quick to do iniquity, and how slow to do good, are the children of men; yea, how quick to hearken unto the words of the evil one, and to set their hearts upon the vain things of the world!
5 Yea, how quick to be lifted up in pride; yea, how quick to boast, and do all manner of that which is iniquity; and how slow are they to remember the Lord their God, and to give ear unto his counsels, yea, how slow to walk in wisdom’s paths!
6 Behold, they do not desire that the Lord their God, who hath created them, should rule and reign over them; notwithstanding his great goodness and his mercy towards them, they do set at naught his counsels, and they will not that he should be their guide." (Helaman 12)
I'm very tired while I write this, just FYI. I have been dwelling on stupid non-verbals lately and wishing that I couldn't read them at all... I don't have Aspergers, but I know people who do and I know despite being unaware of some of what people are sending out there they get hurt as much if not more at times. Women in tend to be beyond complicated in what offends them or erks them. Men can and often do gossip just as much and in my growing up years it was words of men to other men that cause me much grief growing up, being called numerous things that weren't true whatsoever. I think that people initially fall into these gossip sessions out of relief, they want someone to agree with their perception; a person bothers them and they feel they need someone else to be just as bothered for them to feel okay (just like those who are miserable seek to make others miserable too.....) Usually when people think that what they are doing is harmless is when the most damage is being done...
I remember growing up and seeing this poster about Gossip, good old fashioned Mormon-ads... It showed many hands covered in tar saying "Gossip, don't pass it on.." That visual is incredibly true and to the point, all you are doing by complaining about someone else is spreading something that is just like tar, black, disgusting and near permanent in someone's mind... you can't get rid of it!
People don't realize the consequences of their actions, but gossip is truly evil... It is so hard trying to get to know people when one person who doesn't like you that you've talked to, turns into 50 or so who you've never even talked to. People act different when they hear something severely negative about someone, they see them differently and not in clear sight, but with mud that given to them by someone who thought they were just seeking 'validation'. That dirty little thing that we DO need, but do we need to express our frustrations about every person? My seminary teacher talked a lot about the feeling that comes to people when they talk about another person, so similar to a 'high'- but not a spiritual high from God, but a quick lived high just like illicit drugs that calls for more and more and never finding satisfaction, but just enough burst that they keep coming for more and are addicted to putting this person down that they are sure is intentionally being mean to them...
I have been trying really hard to not do this. I got in a situation with a girl who was frustrated with another girl that we are around quite a lot who kept bringing up things about her that were negative or negative things she'd said and I kept saying how I didn't want to say anything or add anything to it, but she kept talking about it so to give validation I did say something like, "... well, does sound like it was a little much..." but oh, even such a mild statement can be blown out of context and I could be the bad guy when this person was talking one and on for about 5 mins, all she had to do was take that one statement and give it a tone to THAT person and BAM- I deserve to be glared at and treated differently.
Lately I have really been trying to talk to God about someone who's bothering me and it flows wonderfully- cause he's PERFECT, you get validation and then absolute truth... God takes our messed up perspective and makes it right in a split second... there could be biological factors adding to why we feel frustration and pain, but even HE will help with that; with inspiration of what to do or seek for. Two people can talk about a person with love and inspiration, but majority of the time- there is a lack of love and it turns into that nasty tar that will affect the person you are speaking about whether you like it or not you changed someone else's perspective for the worse and that is evil- it's dark, if you speak of positives- then it's light and from God.
5 Yea, how quick to be lifted up in pride; yea, how quick to boast, and do all manner of that which is iniquity; and how slow are they to remember the Lord their God, and to give ear unto his counsels, yea, how slow to walk in wisdom’s paths!
6 Behold, they do not desire that the Lord their God, who hath created them, should rule and reign over them; notwithstanding his great goodness and his mercy towards them, they do set at naught his counsels, and they will not that he should be their guide." (Helaman 12)
I'm very tired while I write this, just FYI. I have been dwelling on stupid non-verbals lately and wishing that I couldn't read them at all... I don't have Aspergers, but I know people who do and I know despite being unaware of some of what people are sending out there they get hurt as much if not more at times. Women in tend to be beyond complicated in what offends them or erks them. Men can and often do gossip just as much and in my growing up years it was words of men to other men that cause me much grief growing up, being called numerous things that weren't true whatsoever. I think that people initially fall into these gossip sessions out of relief, they want someone to agree with their perception; a person bothers them and they feel they need someone else to be just as bothered for them to feel okay (just like those who are miserable seek to make others miserable too.....) Usually when people think that what they are doing is harmless is when the most damage is being done...
I remember growing up and seeing this poster about Gossip, good old fashioned Mormon-ads... It showed many hands covered in tar saying "Gossip, don't pass it on.." That visual is incredibly true and to the point, all you are doing by complaining about someone else is spreading something that is just like tar, black, disgusting and near permanent in someone's mind... you can't get rid of it!
People don't realize the consequences of their actions, but gossip is truly evil... It is so hard trying to get to know people when one person who doesn't like you that you've talked to, turns into 50 or so who you've never even talked to. People act different when they hear something severely negative about someone, they see them differently and not in clear sight, but with mud that given to them by someone who thought they were just seeking 'validation'. That dirty little thing that we DO need, but do we need to express our frustrations about every person? My seminary teacher talked a lot about the feeling that comes to people when they talk about another person, so similar to a 'high'- but not a spiritual high from God, but a quick lived high just like illicit drugs that calls for more and more and never finding satisfaction, but just enough burst that they keep coming for more and are addicted to putting this person down that they are sure is intentionally being mean to them...
I have been trying really hard to not do this. I got in a situation with a girl who was frustrated with another girl that we are around quite a lot who kept bringing up things about her that were negative or negative things she'd said and I kept saying how I didn't want to say anything or add anything to it, but she kept talking about it so to give validation I did say something like, "... well, does sound like it was a little much..." but oh, even such a mild statement can be blown out of context and I could be the bad guy when this person was talking one and on for about 5 mins, all she had to do was take that one statement and give it a tone to THAT person and BAM- I deserve to be glared at and treated differently.
Lately I have really been trying to talk to God about someone who's bothering me and it flows wonderfully- cause he's PERFECT, you get validation and then absolute truth... God takes our messed up perspective and makes it right in a split second... there could be biological factors adding to why we feel frustration and pain, but even HE will help with that; with inspiration of what to do or seek for. Two people can talk about a person with love and inspiration, but majority of the time- there is a lack of love and it turns into that nasty tar that will affect the person you are speaking about whether you like it or not you changed someone else's perspective for the worse and that is evil- it's dark, if you speak of positives- then it's light and from God.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
The Keys
"God loves all His children. That is why He pleads so earnestly with us through His prophets. Just as we want what is best for our loved ones, Heavenly Father wants what is best for us. That is why His instructions are so crucial and sometimes so urgent. That is why He has not abandoned us today but continues to reveal His will to us through His prophets. Our fate and the fate of our world hinge on our hearing and heeding the revealed word of God to His children.
"God’s priceless instructions to humankind are found in the Bible, the Book of Mormon, the Doctrine and Covenants, and the Pearl of Great Price. In addition, the Lord speaks to us through His servants, as He will again at the upcoming general conference."
While I was in college I had the opportunity to hear from Elder Erying. He was speaking about something in his life, that was so similar to something in my life, that went quite well for him, but it hit my sensitivities and I was fighting tears from a situation that didn't exactly go quite so well. Erying paused in his story, at the exact moment I was about to cry, then he said, "I should be careful what I say, I know some may not have such good fortune..." Now, could he see me?- absolutely not, I was literally in the back of a huge meetinghouse and I wasn't even crying, simply near it... I was completely sure at that exact moment that he had the power of revelation, the timing was exact and exactly what I needed to hear.
I believe that when men heed the Holy Ghost, who honor their priesthood, they can receive divine guidance from the Father- for whomever they may have steward over at that time. As an apostle Elder Eyring has stewardship over all of us, thought not the Prophet with all the active keys, he is still an actual prophet that I heard in a meeting house 7 years ago. As a woman I know I've felt revelation come into my heart and mind for myself and if someone receives revelation for me who has stewardship over me, as a member I am not required to believe or do anything without receiving my own witness. I question anything and everything, but when I do my heart is open to revelation to absolute truth and if I am confused about something, I always find peace and understanding no matter what, the Lord is always there to speak to us and give us answers.
This Church is true, it is real and it is divinely created in an organized manner to follow a prophet all the way down to a deacon to help us live the best lives we possibly can. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
"God’s priceless instructions to humankind are found in the Bible, the Book of Mormon, the Doctrine and Covenants, and the Pearl of Great Price. In addition, the Lord speaks to us through His servants, as He will again at the upcoming general conference."
While I was in college I had the opportunity to hear from Elder Erying. He was speaking about something in his life, that was so similar to something in my life, that went quite well for him, but it hit my sensitivities and I was fighting tears from a situation that didn't exactly go quite so well. Erying paused in his story, at the exact moment I was about to cry, then he said, "I should be careful what I say, I know some may not have such good fortune..." Now, could he see me?- absolutely not, I was literally in the back of a huge meetinghouse and I wasn't even crying, simply near it... I was completely sure at that exact moment that he had the power of revelation, the timing was exact and exactly what I needed to hear.
I believe that when men heed the Holy Ghost, who honor their priesthood, they can receive divine guidance from the Father- for whomever they may have steward over at that time. As an apostle Elder Eyring has stewardship over all of us, thought not the Prophet with all the active keys, he is still an actual prophet that I heard in a meeting house 7 years ago. As a woman I know I've felt revelation come into my heart and mind for myself and if someone receives revelation for me who has stewardship over me, as a member I am not required to believe or do anything without receiving my own witness. I question anything and everything, but when I do my heart is open to revelation to absolute truth and if I am confused about something, I always find peace and understanding no matter what, the Lord is always there to speak to us and give us answers.
This Church is true, it is real and it is divinely created in an organized manner to follow a prophet all the way down to a deacon to help us live the best lives we possibly can. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
Monday, January 30, 2012
The Book of Mormon is pro- homeopathic medicine:
" And there were some who died with fevers, which at some seasons of the year were very frequent in the land—but not so much so with fevers, because of the excellent qualities of the many plants and roots which God had prepared to remove the cause of diseases, to which men were subject by the nature of the climate—" (Alma 46:40)
I really do believe that there are many herbs and plants that we overlook when it comes to overcoming diseases. I love learning about various essential oils that have anti-viral properties, or anti-bacterial for facials. I don't have an qualms with modern medicine, I just don't think the simply things of the earth already here should be so overlooked.
" And there were some who died with fevers, which at some seasons of the year were very frequent in the land—but not so much so with fevers, because of the excellent qualities of the many plants and roots which God had prepared to remove the cause of diseases, to which men were subject by the nature of the climate—" (Alma 46:40)
I really do believe that there are many herbs and plants that we overlook when it comes to overcoming diseases. I love learning about various essential oils that have anti-viral properties, or anti-bacterial for facials. I don't have an qualms with modern medicine, I just don't think the simply things of the earth already here should be so overlooked.
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